Monday, April 30, 2007

Happy Thoughts

"happiness is everything and anything at all that's loved by you ..."

I told myself that I will write about something positive today. So after listening and being inspired by the song, I asked a couple of friends this question" "what is the one thing that makes you happy?". Their replies ranged from the simple to the profound.

Elsie: playing with my nieces and nephews never fail to make my day.

Siong: weekends .... 3 days weekend ... the best!

Jeff: girls, jokes, friends.

Cat: giving away something worthwhile anonymously and knowing that someone appreciates the gift.

Penny: either shopping or a new hairstyle.

B.S.: a nice steaming cup of kopi-o kau.



Monday, April 16, 2007

Broken Heart and Memories

Of a broken heart and memories
I lay broken and wounded
with nothing to show
but pieces of a heart
lying scattered
by a wind fierecely blowing
along a sea of sadness
drowning all traces
of yesterday.

Friday, April 13, 2007

Reality Bites

Day dreams ..... ahhhhh my days of day dreaming besides sleeping.

I have blogged about my "crush" earlier on, someone whom I always pictured together with me when I daydream. There we would be holding hands or he would have his arms around me, or sometimes, I would just be resting my head on his shoulders and he would have his arms around mine. Whatever picture my mind conjures up, it always exudes happiness, contentent and security. He was clearly my "what might have been" guy. The man you can visualise yourself with but it just never happened.

Yesterday though, all the daydreams came to an end. Because yesterday, I have come to learn that I was not his "what might have been" girl. I never was. In fact, I didn't even come close. A bitter pill to swallow but the truth is like that sometimes. It was probably for the best. Now, I wouldn't wonder what might have been.

It never would have happen.


Friday, April 06, 2007

Self Control

Each person has an image of herself .... a mixture of good and bad traits unless you see yourself as perfect. Believe me, I have never seen myself as perfect. Far from it, although one of the things I believe I am is kind. Sure, I have my off days when I get all temperamental and become a big time B-I-T-C-H but most of the time I think I am a nice person. But has it ever happened to you that someone you know and for some reason that person sets your blood boiling? Had been quite sometime since I felt the urge to put out my devil horns until now. There are times I have to stop myself from blurting out nasty comments when that person speaks. If I could only raise one eyebrow, I would have done it a million times by now. There are even times when I felt like nothing more than to wring that person's neck. Good thing I can control what I say or do. Hopefully, I can do this until I no longer have to deal with that person any more.

Oh, God, give me strength.


Monday, April 02, 2007


I love sleeping. Yesterday I had more than enough sleep.

Sleep is luxury to me. I don't think time spent on sleeping is ever a waste. I don't get enough of it so many times so whenever I get the chance, you know what I will do.

And I think there is another reason why I'm like this. Apart from sleeping, I'm doing alot of daydreaming. That explains why I have not been productive lately. I just want to think about my new "crush". Well, he is someone I like alot but not the kind who would ever be for me. I like him as he is. I think of him as how a man should be. I like his personality, we are not close though he is all nice and I really have this big admiration for him.

I see him alot by accident. That's what I have been constantly replaying in my head. Those meetings are strange not becase of their form but of their frequency. How could his passing by a place I happen to pass by at the same moment occur so many times? Of course it doen't mean anything. It's just a happy thought. Hahaha!!