torn

Alot of people say that the best relationships start out from friendship. I agree but when you are somehow stuck in limbo between friends and being romantically involved, it sucks. For a guy, you would feel your way through not knowing if pursuing the relationship would ruin your friendship or bring you to the next level and when you are girl (at least in our part of the world), you would wait. And if you are anything like me, you would think ... alot too. Does he like me? Is this just me? Are his actions his way of saying he likes me or that we are just good friends? You are enjoying that "high" experience when together and keeping your feelings in check but somehow your logical and emotional selves are battling and you are praying that he saves you from it. You want to know where you stand and where you are headed from this point onwards but you are hoping that wherever it is you are going, you wont 't get hurt.

So what do you do when you are in that limbo? Do you step back and distance yourself with the chance that you are letting go of something that might be special or do you hold on to that glimmer of hope, however faint, with the risk that you will get hurt?

I, for one, have no answers. These are questions I, myself ask. All I know is that love poses both great rewards and immense pain. Nobody said it was easy but nonetheless, it is a path everyone would like to take whether we admit to it or not.

" ... and if I could hold on
through the tears and the laughter
would it be beautiful
or just a beautiful disaster? ... "

Moon/51