I should start screaming

I cry when I am pissed. It's probably the way my body releases the pent-up negative energy that I try to keep bottled up. Sometimes, I even try not to cry, although I very seldom succeed in doing that.

I am not a confrontational person. As much as I can, I try not to stir up arguments eventhough sometimes it's the right way or even the only way to go. I guess I have seen confrontations as a point of no return. Once you have said something, you cannot take it back and the scars that the argument leaves tarnishes the relationship or friendship you have.

Well, we all know that arguments are a part of any relationship. I just never got used to it. Even when I was young, I would cry and not speak up. I am very outspoken when it comes to my opinions as long as they are not directed at anyone.

An aunt is suffering from Alzheimer and I was told that the probable reason for this was that she keeps her feelings bottled inside and thought too much. So now I am wondering ... in the distant future, will I walk the same path as her?

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